It's all hidden.

im really tired like hell today. hahahaha! cOz yesterday i went out the whole day from 4pm+ to today morning at 6am+. hahaha! Crazy right? But it was definitely FUNNNNN!
Yesterday went out with the guys to alot of places and i also got to go place i never go before sia! it's VERY SCARY. i feel like peeing in my pants.
At first went to eat at Kallang KFC with him because over there got freeflow water. But we alas perot only. hahas. then went to CArefour at Suntec to buy some stuffs. Ey yes! i saw Mrs Low and Mr Low you know! Mr Low very hansome! hehehe. Ok. after shopping,i and him otw to Mustaffa Centre. And he was very Funny. He scolded the mamaS "Dorang ni buat macam road bapak dorang je!" Hahahaha! Ok then something happened so he turn round2. Blueekk! After angkuts the budak2[HAHAHA] we go Eunos and have our dinner. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
We ordered white rice, BBQ Stingray,Beancurd with Beef and Butter Prawn. it was D.E.L.I.C.I.O.U.S.
The guys are gatals. Lagi2 si Hazam.ape nak spanking2? hahaha.
Ok.then the guys ordered sheesha. i didnt jOin. i good girl Ok! =))
Mixed fruit flavour. The asap was foamy2. ey,the smell is NICE ok. Lagi sedap dari rokok [like duh!?] hahhaa.There was a secong round. Then slowly Din pening including me i think too MIXED until i feel keNONENG.
After our dinner,all the boys dont want to go home first so we go jalan2 first.
So he headed to Changi. But before reaching CHangi,we went to OCH. Dammit! Arghhh! SCARY,EERIE. ok,i'll not say what we did there cos it's damn scary. Ok,please i dont want to go anymoRE! But experience u know.
Then,stop at Changi there because wanna put on something in his "sayang". So waited. Din da kenoneng mintak aku picits kepaler BUT im sux at it.
Otw to send Din home. we stop at S11 to have supper. sambil tengok bOla disitu. Fudin kelakar to the MAX sak. ape kes nak dgr Hindustan. hahahaha! Tapi BESTTTT... we were singing in his car.
ALOT of bende merepek terjadi. One thing i cannot tahan ketawer is when he said this " barang sesiape yang mengatakan bahawa Islam adalah sesat,maka BUTOH la kepada kamu!" wakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakaka! fcuking funny!!!

Oh ya,B caught 1 ikan. Ikan ape tah.

dalah,kalau nak continue sampai biler pon tak habis.

im going to sleeeeeeeeeeeep like a baby today.

CHALOBETEY.

i Cornetto Royale Tiramissyou.

BayBee_sLaCkSzz told you a secret at 8:59 PM .

im left alone at home with my mum now.
my dad's not home yet from work.
B is out to see lumo or lomu? i dont know la.

just finish cleaning up the house.
damn bloody tired but feeling satisfy after looking the house is cleaner.

i dont have the mood at all to go out with anyone today.
im sorri ok? i didnt mean to ignore your SMS. but i hope u understand.
u can say whatever you want. But i have other things to look after first.
if u're angry with me,go ahead. i know.

i think im going out later to have my dinner.

i feel like crying now. but i can't.
i dont want my mum to see & asking me why..

i really can't stand this anymore.

Only God knows what's in my heart and head.
If only i could shout now. i would.

Problems unsolved. &i don't know what to do.
I hide all my sorrows behind my smile.
But sometimes,i wont smile but put that gloomy face.
don't think that just because im always smiling,means im happy.
Besides, there's alot of things going through my mind.

i've tried commiting suicide. but i didnt.
i cant bear to see be separated with my love ones.
No point commiting suicide.
i don't earn anything. but'll lose if i did.
On the other hand, commiting suicide is a SIN.

mum knows that these few days im having mood swing.
no appetite to eat too.

ok. actually still have alot of things to say BUT im lazy to type.

im off.

CHALOBETEY bebehh.

"Say i love you. "

i Cornetto Royale Tiramissyou.

BayBee_sLaCkSzz told you a secret at 8:51 PM .

haha.Ok im now in the Comp lab doing nothing. Actually now is PC period. what we have to do is "sexual Education" BUT we needto combine with 4N2 and 5n2 BUT they have something else..
SOOO,meaning.. we have FREE PERIODS! yeay!! that's why im blogging now. hahaha!

Hmm,today still 50:50. half sick half ok. i telan 2 bijik of panadol just now. now feeling Ok Ok la.
Today we received COUPON to get FREE ICE-CREAM!! i ate CHOCOLATE ICE-CREAM!!
Yummy Yumm~

im gonna have nightmare this weekend ALOT OF HOMEWERKS!!

OH GOOOOOOOOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!

im gonna have
English homework[ summary Writing ]
MALAY homework [3 karangan + TYS]

Tomorrow is ICONNEXION day! Hurray!
NO need to go to school BUT GOT WORK to do. haiiyaa.

i was wondering why people are SO K.P.O??

need to tell other people what i do and all those.

pls la.

im sick of this Ok!?

Argh.

till here. MAYBE i'll write later.

CHALOBETEY. i tiramissyou YOU.

BayBee_sLaCkSzz told you a secret at 1:34 PM .

ok. im having stomachache right now. dammit! still doing my FnN Coursework but i dont know how to do that stupid squared thingy! [mampos bengapnyer]ARgGHHh!!
and ya, i want to thank my darling for making me understand what the hell is GreenHouse effects. After all this yearsss. Oh Goodness. hahaha!

Having mood swings. im half happy. half moody.

ok,im not gonna continue. anyway thanks to Mamat for the advise.

and yah im listening to this song called 'Grace Kelly' by Mika

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!
Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want

ok then. my stomach is HURTING like hell.

CHOLOBETEY bebeh.

i Cornetto Royale Tiramiaayou.

BayBee_sLaCkSzz told you a secret at 11:25 PM .

Hmm,i just finish studying. haha. so hard working. Hmm. i studied Social Studies and FnN just now. it was easy to manage..
For social studies i studies on Health Care Services in Spore and for FnN i studied Proteins. Eh! i still don't know how to define saturated fats n unsaturated fats!! arghhh! But it's Ok. i can ask Miss Hidayah. right? haha.
and yahh! i went to see 'someone'. jeng jeng jeng. long time never meet that 'someone'. haiyaaa. he commented on my hair sia. he said i look '_ _ _ _ ' [find out yourself what is it.hahahaha] he's evil sey. haha! But eventhough he's evil,he bought me something just now. & ya Thanks for the treat! heh. We went to ECP. walk2 then sit at the water breaker. 10 plus we went home.
Oopss! i forgot! today's that 'someone' 's birthday!
happy bufday to you,
happy bufday to you,
happy bufday to yooooouuu...
happy bufday to you!

LOL. whad the hell.

okla. im going to bed ship now.

CHALOBETEY bebeh.

BayBee_sLaCkSzz told you a secret at 3:51 AM .

Booooo..! haha!
i blog earlier today because after i switch off my computer, i will siting in front of my books already. That's why before i go off, i blog first.
Actually today my feelings are all mixed together like Rojak. Felt happy, angry, bored, stress and bla bla bla...
So can you imagine me banging my head on the wall with a smile on my face because im happy,angry,bored and stress at the same time? hahaha! WTH?! Nonsensical.
And ya! i told my darling that i was DAMN Happy that i chatted with Gary. Hahahaha! He' busy now, so i understands if he replied me late BUT at least he replied me Ok? Long time never see him. Rasaa rindu bangaats. Know what does that mean? It means I TiramiSsyou Gary aloooot... HaHaaa!
Eh and Ya! Just now. the Chemistry teacher. errm whads his name? Mr Ng? At first i heard Mrs Suganda wrongly. i thought she said MR LENG. im really DEAF man. especially these days. need to dig my ear deep2 i think. haha. And ya, i think that Mr Ng looks abit like Gary to me! To me lah. During lesson i turned a few times to the back to see his face. wakakakakakakakaka!!
Today im going to study Physics and Geog of course!
Just now i went to iconnexion. but i can't upload my PowerPoint for the Geog! IRRITATING right!? need to refresh alot of time but STILL CANNOT!
mailto:#^!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*@!%$^$

ok enough of scolding "GOOD" words. haha!

Haiz. i really don't know what the fcuking hell is going on here.
im confused.
im feeling down.
im DAMN BLOODY STRESS.
i want to shout. [but later people call police/IMH say i GILA. so cannot]
i want to get out of what im going through now.

really.
it's making me MORE & MORE & MORE SICK.
i think soon i'll go mad.
u'll see me IMH.
then you guys pay me a visit ok.?
haha. CRAAPPP. LAME sia.

k then.

CHALOBETEY.

BayBee_sLaCkSzz told you a secret at 6:37 PM .

hmm,as im blogging now,im listening to this song.. I Don't Want To Miss A Thing by Aerosmith. I really love this song. it touches my heart in someway or another.
Today i went to catch a movie called Mr Bean Holiday with B and my uncle! Like ya,my uncle treat us,haha! Thank Youu! I can tell you, that show is FULLY BOOKED at 3.00 and 4.15. so no choice, we bought the tix on 5.15 show. The show was DAMN FUNNY like HELL and i was laughing to the maximum non-stop hahahahahahahahahahaha! but sadly, we 3 sat at the extremely front row. but hey! not bad lor! the screen much2 bigger. haha! i bought the tix at 3 plus la but we still have alot of time to wait till 5.15 so we 3 went to eat at LJS. heh.
Ey yah,my NCC girl fren,NurulHuda is working there sey. i say"hie!" and waves to her. but she like shy2. nvm. i understand. she's always like that. Then i saw Natiara with her sis n then came her mum. i waved n smile at her. didnt get the chance to 'salam' her mum. feel berdosa gitu. but it's ok. other time maybe? :) hee.
after we watched the movie, we 3 went to arcade. haha. as usual my uncle will be palying the soccer while me n B will be wandering around like kid's yg kurang kaseh sayang. haha! whad only. But then, when i was watching my uncle playing the soccer match, i saw this guy in red sitting behind my uncle kinda cute sey. hehe *cheeky*

ey yah! i also saw Kok Shang at LJS just now! at first with a girl at Century Square. i assume her girlfriend maybe? Then with Clement(ex 4T1 last year) and other guy at LJS. when he say me he was like 'Eh?'Then he smile2 like kambeng biri2 tapi tetap cute. haha! (kambing biri2 are also cute whad,right?) haha!

Yah, there goes my day today. and yes! i just finish reading the book called 'Cofession' . It's really a good book. but whad i cannot tahan. alot of RA stuffs. luckily it doesnt make me TUT. wakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakaka!
but yah,it's kinda sad story. i feel like crying when reading the book but i cant.
Dont ask me WHY. it's just that i CAN'T. haha! im thinking to much of my Cornetto Royale i think. wakakaka! WTF!?

k then. i wanna get the hell out of here. my eyes is getting smaller.

i cut my hair liao. i look more uglier than ever species in the world. FCUK.

BayBee_sLaCkSzz told you a secret at 11:37 PM .